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EOY part 2 / Wednesday, October 29, 2008

wohohoho!
today got back the rest of my results^^
was exciting, fun, disappointing, horrifying!
all in all, exhilarating...

Got back me Physics first.. just passed
was so sadded coz like lowest in class (yet again:)
then went around walk here walk there
my overall score was tarded, coz was so close to getting a 3.2 but nvr get, got 2.8...

Then BiO! wahahahahahahaz
so retarded, tot i aced it coz i write alot
but actually nvr even scored 70 coz i wrote too many unneccessary stuff tat isnt even required in the paper? wadehell nvr even giv extra marks for effort for reading out of syllabus? sadded
its tarded walao...

Turning point came during maths
quite satisfied considering tat i scored 50 % for sec1 and 2 EOYs...
Then SS woohooooo tot i failed but got nice nice marks so happy
Surprise gift for me, i knew i had the luck today^^
BUAHA

so exam marks all get back le
was satisfied with my marks (maybe)
But wasnt satisfied with my attitude towards my studies this year.
When i first came into RI, i treated every small piece of work super uber seriously
but this year i heck a lot of stuff...
felt that i changed alot,
for the worse...
my attitude sux, mentality sux everything sux..
plus this year my goal for studies was "aiya not impt this year so heck"
wadhell.....
gota be more serious next year liaoz
must get my focus back!
yea yea!
yay so finally over ....
This year's academic stuff, now for hols

Busy weezy^^

/Hopped!
10:00 PM

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/ Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Yesterday went for festival of lights bieannale thingy
so gonna post pics when i free!
Very fun lehz heehz take pic then walk around city hall^^
Though i didnt show it, i enjoyed it!
So pls dun say im emo when i go quiet, diaoz, its a form of i dun wan tok thingy....
hahahahz
shit thinking about piercing my leg with sword than blood splashing out, weird?

Woohoo yesterday was awesome! Some of the artworks dam nice
like yousheng face
joel t shirt
Hadi square face
kin wai (new specimen)
Zhao yang big camera
xinyan cat
Deoderant
and some other person who go off halfway? (run away specimen)
Yup! new faces means new experience Woah!

today lehz?
back to sch to collect results
quite gd la, considering nvr study as hard as last year
but Not GD LA Considering need maintain 3.6 to continue 11 subjects....
WALAo everything like 79 69 dam pissing
plus
Extra fact is for the first time in my life ( I Think )
i scored higher for eng than CHINESE
WALAO
weird year! hahahahahaz

Bleahz tmr got 5 more
must jiayou! ^^

Yeah!

/Hopped!
8:57 PM

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Alones english translation / Monday, October 27, 2008

Your folded pale wings
are just a little tired from the overly blue sky
You don’t have to force your smile for anyone else
It’s alright to smile only for yourself
Loneliness continues to creep up on me,
a candle alight on the inside
Such a gorgeous chandelier
shouldn’t be at a crowded party, like this one
Why should I bury it all
in the emptiness of words that are lacking?
I don’t know anymore
As long as we can swim freely in our dreams,
we don’t need the sky anymore
Even if I can’t paint over everything
that happened up until yesterday,
I’ll still come out to meet you tomorrow
Your folded pale wings
are just a little tired from the overly blue sky
You don’t have to force your smile for anyone else
It’s alright to smile only for yourself
Inferiority complexes and reconciliations
aren’t things that will come true so easily
The mirror that remains
at the top of self-consciousness reflects flower petals
It looks like my voice is strained
from trying to cry out with an impure love
It’s irritating
In these changing times,wounds will soon turn into scabs
Without waiting for that to happens,
you’re so beautiful, and so fleeting…
Prayers shiver in the sun,
like traces of down that have come loose
It’s alright to not think about loving someone
as being too much for you right now
Sometimes this world is a little bit too dazzling
to walk looking upward in
When you cast your eyes down,
as though sinking, the dry ground slurps up your tears
Why do we feel so alone anytime?
You don’t have to take on everything
Why do we feel so alone anytime?
Just putting up with it isn’t courage

/Hopped!
12:46 AM

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/ Friday, October 24, 2008

Fighting without knowing the reason behind it
this is the horror of human.
and this is wad sets us apart from animals

The black parade is dead - cancer

The black parade is dead - disenchanted

/Hopped!
11:33 PM

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"Dun confuse courage with taking up arms, and cowardice with retreating"
read it some where recently, but forgot le...

Anyways, found that this sentence really meant a lot and its really practical in our daily lives.
Why do we have so many conflicts? wwhy do we constanly fight among each other?
have we stopped and thought about this?

Conflicts are inevitable, conflicts allows us to express our view points...
But isit always necessary for us to put insist on our view points?
why must ppl always wanna win? why must we always want to insist that our view points are correct?
Why must we always be the best?
cant we listen to others for a bit?
cant we just shut our mouths and make good use of our ears, they are there for a purpose...

"Im always correct
Im always the best
They are just stupid retards who dun understand me"

People have these mentalities that will eventually cut themselves off
from empathising with others,
from trying to understand wad others are going through

If we can just pause and think.. listen.. and not use our mouths so much, we will understand that
maybe their ideas are better
maybe my life isnt so shitty after all as there are others who are less fortunate
maybe they have a reason for shouting at me...
maybe they have a reason to be angry...

Well, when two parties insist on their own stand, sparks fly and wala most ppl have to bring in violence.
To make sure that my view point is the best, i'll take u down, i'll defeat u
coz im correct, im justice and ur not, so i have the right to make u suffer...
lol...
while people are in the midst of arguing or fighting over whos right and who is wrong
we often neglect a few stuffies

- wads the point of showing that u r correct? isit worth fighting for? or isit just because u feel angry and wanna win, tats why u want to fight?
- Will this fight coz others to suffer for u?
- Will u regret fighting in the later part of ur life?

Sometimes, people get so heated up, they start fighting to prove tat they are better
they will rope in any excuse, any reasons, just show tat they hav a platform to pit their strengths against one another.
They forget about the people who will suffer, about the disadvantages involved
Then, most ppl fight already, then regret .. diaoz
This is the most retarded

If u want to fight,
then dun regret
even if it means costing u the dearest things in life.
try thinking about the impact on others
before u start giving the first blow

But we dun really have to fight all the time...
"Dun confuse courage with taking up arms, and cowardice with retreating"
sometimes, backing out isnt a bad thing ^^

/Hopped!
11:03 PM

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Back from slumber! Hohoho / Wednesday, October 22, 2008

^^ back from long sleep! which lasted from night to night for 2 nights!
Yep! though still very tired but yeah, it did help a bit.
So now, time to recap for Exam day, yesterday and today, quite a few things happened.

Monday

Bio exam..
Was like looking at clock the whole time during exam, wanted exam to be over
at same time tried to concentrate,
didnt want to end the exam period with regret.
In the end, the exam ques was quite fun, esp the open ended.
spam on the ques i knew quite well
so nice, though handwriting sux

Then, went on a bishan / canal trail
At the bishan park, whole place like so nice
all muddy
then my pants muddy
shoe also...

Went home alone at night coz walk with xin yan to his house.
Wah the stretch from Semb to Yishun really scary.
i was walking uner the mrt track
Quite dark and got thunder,
very scared get struck by lightning coz no tall trees around me
But it was a nice experiece^^

WAIT, before i end here, i bought MCR the BLACK PARADE IS DEAD DVD,
the best!
haahahahaz

Tuesday

Golf tournament in morning
i got one of the highest score, 69
which means im one of the lousiest!
hahaahz , butit was quite fun, any how wack^^
bleahz

Afternoon got the annual golf buffet thingy
except this year i went on stage get some grant award coz
i got through some interview thingy
yep
CAC really helped me ^^ woohoo

Went home at 4, slp like pig

Today

was Fun!
Got 3 jabs around my body.
Not as pain as expected
so cool
getting prepared for OIP!
bleahz
the real pain came when i was taking the plaster off my arm....
wadda hell, put plaster for wad... :(

Wahaz so wala, 3 days summarised so nicely
gonna go pack my worksheet and books
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Jie fly to dunno where le^^ so sad
cant go FA comp too...
Coz me also flying
to tunku Joel country
wahahaz
meet joel's wives, i think msia can have many wives, esp the tunku^^

/Hopped!
9:02 PM

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