omg i tok bout serious stuff more than normal stuff / Friday, September 05, 2008
Many many days nvr blog,
Have many many things as usual to tok about
But i got pissed on tues wednesday night...
heres just smthing i wanted to say on wednesday night
" if u wanna Die, go ahead, coz a person who speaks so casually about dying doesnt deserve to Live"
i noe its harsh... but its my thoughts
and i dun target specific ppl, its just to the general ppl
i noe many people will think im retarded or emotionless but yeah! this is me tards^^
Today many things happen...
Went out morning for service learning
turned out dun hav coz external mentor didnt agree for the meeting
Jon and Yong Han was like giving the effing face and shouting vulgarities, well...
i didnt really feel anything though...
too detached with my emotions...
Came back
went study with myself in Bishan library
Saw Chong xi...
Shes Blur.. gd gd blur is gd!
then i said " hilo im clive" diaoz so fun!
then seat down 3rd floor study maths and Redox so cooool
was so BORED coz yousheng dun wan study with me....
hahahaz nvm la i think he study with me in the end i will ga qiao him until he pissed^^
Then went tuition!
Then after tat the best time of the day came...
i could eat!
Coz today i tried fastin coz DD wanted me too... which is TARDs fun
but everytime walk past food store feel like grabbing smthing and shove into mouth then RUN
then tuition ended at 7.30
fasting ends at 7.10,
im immediately ran to S11 ate $5 dollars worth of recess....^^
came home ATE again!
thenread some ppl blog, they also like to fast...
miaoz while bathing thought bout some stuff...
i like yamichika from Bleach
"Ur way of fighting is ugly, get out of my sight"
ownz like shit his philo
Today on MSN lost myself to anger and emotions, not emo though
i really want to understand this time
i noe im retarded in the past and is still am,
but i want to understand ppl's feelings...
i cant stand it when im happy then others sad or dunno wad la
MIAOZ
im selfish...
^^
And still DD is a tard^^
then comes JIE and YY...
CRAZINESS
but will be missing JIE like 1 month after EOY omgz
Siao
Sad le la RAWRRAWR
then YY sad i dunno why
then she happy hahahaahz
Congrats to JIE YAY
priceless hahahaz
and u loan me out to YY
im a toy :)
So fun fun!
ok i tok like a retard ^^ yea! im retard
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Now comes a fun and interesting part,
for those who dun like emoers GO AWY NOW (except for u chiharu Jie, but dun go emoemo after this ar! or disown me:( )
In this world,
everyone is selfish..
wad kindness,
wad love,
wad hope,
these are just excuses for our selfishness
wadever we do we want to get smthing in return...
Kindness, dun be retard
u want to help others so they can be happy
wad for?
Dun lie to yourself that u wanted to help others coz they needed help
Humans do things becoz they want smthing in return
We help others so that in our heart
we noe that we have done our part
so that we can sleep in peace
so that we know our life is meaningful...
The way humans live, so selfish.... and even still, we find excuses for our selfishness...
Why should we exist, for we only exist for ourselves...
when we are alone,
we want to have company
but when we see others in the same plight
we dunt reach our hands out to help them....
Ppl find excuses, saying that they will bear all the burden by themselves..
some of them want to bear the burden so they can get the most experience from it...
some just want to carry these burden coz they think they are helping others
but dunt u noe that by doing so,
u r making others worry for u... then in a way u r selfish too^^
hahahahahaz myphilo is LAME but fun fun!!!
lets live in a selfish world^^
one last selish thing:
" sometimes, i feel that i have the power to change the world"
/Hopped!
12:07 AM
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