recap recap / Sunday, August 31, 2008
Wah shit, so many things happen after POC until today..
Wanted to blog but no time, mainly coz i was looking at other ppl blog and my mum taking my comp wire...
Dumb Dumb got it back though^^
ok lets start from hmm.. Friday bah!
since thursday was somewaht boring and dumb...
DUmb DD, make me sad ...
okz Friday miaoz need think...
o yar went to sch thought i was late, then so Eric again.. walao always late then run together to school! yeah!
Then go sch, the celebration was screw up but i tot it was great...
The part where Mr ali came up to sing the 2 songs, coz he was leaving after working 23 years in RI, i was touched..
Though he voice not that good, i could sense the emotions.. felt like crying !! ^^
Then went walking round after celebration with Jia wei yousheng joel sheng wei and Deodatus!
haahz while they toked my deo and jia wei and sheng wei play in sickbay!
tarded...
Went back to CCk lot 1 macs alone...
Slept on train
then saw all the familiar faces! woots so happy...
Then Jeff was pissed coz i pangseh him came sch alone hahaz sryz man
Then jeraldine complained bout her snrs^^ hhaaz crzy ppl
Then jun yean was complaining bout ******** cant say hahaz and keep calling RI gay sch^^
Brings back super hell lot memories
Went sch together wok wok... the road, i knew it would be one of the last trips... coz i am moving house le
Went sch saw mdm R and Yang 老师。。
See Erics Jeff go play bball then our whole class cheering yea! ppooozze ppl
Took grp photo
Went play bball and badminton downstair yuhan house!
Memories again...
Then went for FAAS briefing at HQ with yousheng joel zheyi
Stoned at Sickbay first coz need meet them
Saw yousheng bag when went in
Felt a tinged of guilt, sorrow, helplessness...
Went sit down and think bout stuff, i forgot wad le, was blasting emo music to calm myself down
Then yousheng hobbled in hahahazz
tot he broke his leg
Then i fell aslp
Woke up joel already there
We went eat thn met zheyi then went briefing
I dunt like critisizing but pls dun waste our time...
Went home, felt like walking down the memory lane again
so instead of alighting at cck, alighted at yew teww..
bought meself coke and started walking, listening to musicx
Well, this is the last time i am gonna walk here i think
14 years running around this estate, playing memories all flood in..
i walked quite slow though, wanted to look at everything^^
this chapter of my life is ending soon
memories will be memories
Tmr is gonna be my future...
^^ took 20mins just to walk home
Shit go home start quarrelling....
Now sat!
Went FAAS, bored but the links were cool hahahz
and SHU QIAO, u better not do those things, next time cant get Gf^^
Then, the links liked xin yan and jia wei awww haahahz so cool
cool cool cool
But i nvr gave out anything... coz let the links giv out
see so kind...
Went back sch..
wanna access ssituation,
turned out quite fun
but in the end felt helpless again...
shit...
Went see joel off with DD and kwok
went home... one piece and gundam still nice...
Go home quarrelled ....
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Tot bout it this few days
always said that i could do anything
always wanted to prove myself
always so jealous
But in the end, i dunt achieve anything for others,
nvr change for the better
Always stuck with wad i am, wad i feel
i cant understand others...
isit coz i am too superficial
or hav i been imaginin all along
watched naruto and sasuke fighting part
"Have this been one sided, that i hav always tot u were my friend, coz if it is , i am really stupid"
I felt totally helpless, cant do anything
Its the same for these few weeks
I cant do anything right..
so what if my exam results isnt tat bad,
isit really tat important,
compared to wad i hold dear
hav i been too selfish
too dumb to understand
too clogged up with my own feelings
i noe i dunthave the right to say that if i want to do smthing, i will get it done..
i noe some things cant be changed
But
say me arrogant or overconfident..
But i will change the impossible to the possible!
even if it takes my life...
heh heh, found this cool from gundam 00
"Why is this world distorted
Isit our fault
or the gods fault
Die, will i die here
in this distorted world
Not becoming anything
losing everything
Dying without anyone's notice"
.: helpless ness, fear, fatigue let me conquer all these:.
/Hopped!
4:13 PM
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